tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35526418.post4366012971934913728..comments2023-07-08T19:46:50.811+10:00Comments on Kitten Down Under: I never thought I'd write about being raped, but here it is....kittenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03439562187327606910noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35526418.post-69692825036969342872007-03-18T01:35:00.000+10:002007-03-18T01:35:00.000+10:00I will continue to seek affirmation through others...<I>I will continue to seek affirmation through others</I> This is what makes us the social humans that we are...otherwise we would all be emotionally-detached & narcistic.<BR/>I, like you, try to keep my blog more upbeat, but it's grounding to get a glimpse every now and again of the darker side. Lord knows, our lives are indeed full-color and that does include more than just the bright cheery side of things. In a way, the darker stuff makes the color-wheel of who we are more balanced! ;)<BR/>As Always~ P&Lskinnylittleblondehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04948889861251533317noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35526418.post-4719439121947516492007-03-17T08:12:00.000+10:002007-03-17T08:12:00.000+10:00SLB: THanks so much. I'm not so sure it's balls th...SLB: THanks so much. I'm not so sure it's balls that made me write about it, but thanks for that *grin*. Luckily, I have found a way to deal with it that works for me and I suppose that's what matters most. I have been doing a great deal of soul searching lately and this is just one of the many things that has come up. I don't wan't my blog to be painful for anyone to read, nor do I want it be a big downer, but I do feel compelled to write about the things that help me put the "fun" in dysfunctional some days. I think the many things that have happened in my life have made me the person that I am today; Plagued by insecurities and self-doubt I will continue to seek affirmation through others and I do know this about myself and work daily on being able to not need that to feel good about myself.kittenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03439562187327606910noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35526418.post-7121937859651014232007-03-17T07:55:00.000+10:002007-03-17T07:55:00.000+10:00KittenDownUnder has BallsDownUnder! ;) This experi...KittenDownUnder has BallsDownUnder! ;) This experience was painful enough to live through & painful to caryy, much less share. Rape is all too common. Estimates are that 80% of the women raped never report it to any authority figures (including parents) It is an act of violence & I am so sorry that you had to endure it. I'm sure that nut-job has done it to women both before & after you. Being drunk is no excuse on his part. In fact, he probably had premeditated it. One day, he will get his. I'm also sorry for your parents old-school reaction. You are not to blame. You didn't attack him or anyone else. You did nothing to be ashamed of. I'm glad that you have pulled through & I hope that you continue to pull on. Anxiety,IMHO, is common among women...we worry, we have forethought, we tend & mend things...including ourselves & others, so anxiety is sometimes natural and normal. I think that most of the times we have anxiety...it's for a reason, we may not be able to readily identify that reason, but it is for a reason.<BR/>peace&love to you dear kitten!skinnylittleblondehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04948889861251533317noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35526418.post-87833253576316827152007-03-16T18:43:00.000+10:002007-03-16T18:43:00.000+10:00Yes it was and sometimes can be now, but generally...Yes it was and sometimes can be now, but generally when I think about it I get very anxious. Anxiety attacks are something that I have suffered with infrequently since about '96. I don't know if they are genetic, as my mother also used to have them, or if they are just a symptom of repression. I do have a tendency to suppress my real emotions about a situation at times, though mostly I will just suppress an entire Period of time. WHich is what happened with 1988, I just do NOT remember most of that year. From May 14 to sometime in December is all a blank. Yeah, there are specific things about that time period I do remember but the rest is all foggy.kittenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03439562187327606910noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35526418.post-46932715289591486692007-03-16T18:26:00.000+10:002007-03-16T18:26:00.000+10:00Wow...Geez-us Kimmie. I know that was and is a pai...Wow...<BR/><BR/>Geez-us Kimmie. I know that was and is a painful experience.<BR/><BR/>Sorry.....Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com