"a true Swede will never bark “shut the fuck up” at you. They will hoof and poof and endure, all the while imagining your bloodied corpse flying down from the mezzanine onto the floor below. "
(Yes, montchan, I stole that DIRECTLY off your blog! Tag, you have now been quoted! *kimmie does her happy dance* singing nananabooboo, stick your toes in poopoo...yes I'm done now.)
Weeeeeelllll now then, THAT must be where I get that from. Being part Swedish, of course. Have you ever wondered exactly why you do the things you do, the specific way that you do them? Occasionally I get the impulse to sit and examine my actions....and occasional thoughts, as well. Yes, I do occasionally have thoughts. Don't we all? Hrmm, perhaps not.
Anyway. The actions are what I was pondering. Some days I just want to scream "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" but don't. Some days, I do scream....usually it's a silent scream. Remember the silent scream of AL Pacino in The Godfather Part III? It's the scene where he is realising that his daughter is dead and he opens his mouth to scream but no sound comes out. THAT is what I'm talking about.
Sometimes I wonder what it is I'm continually fighting. Is it myself? It it some unseen force? Or have I just become so accustomed to fighting for what I need or want that I feel I still need to fight for it? C~ says I need to stop fighting. I want to. It's not like I pick fights...but I feel like I'm being attacked at times. Why do I do this? I just have no clue....
But I am sick and tired of holding things in. I'm going to start telling people where they can go jump. Yesterday, someone who shall remain nameless, actually thought I was running water in the kitchen sink just to let the water run...for no apparent reason...Oh yes, I do this ALL the time *snicker*, not! Honestly, this country has a serious drought problem, and some people think I have absolutely no regard for it, therefore I let water run...continuously, for no reason, I just get my kicks out of doing that to piss people off. WTF?!?
Like I said, I just want to scream.